Deception

Scattered thoughts gather on the dormant mind of a wondering soul.
My emotions and thoughts try to guide me but reality has taken its lonesome toll.

My actions hesitate and words slur as I pretend to be what I was when I was Him.
No more. This shall never be. He is no more.

Not today, not ever again will me be Him.
He, Him who was good and pure and true.
He, Him who loved the pain of loving you, you, you, you.................

Boundless emotions caged in a resolute lie.
Tell me what I need to hear and never tell me why.

Tears I never shed, you never let me cry.
For I was Him, he who I promised to be till the day I died.

What good is my strength if you make me weak?
How am I your king when it is I who crumble at your feet?

how does forever come so soon?
I wish I had the shallowness to hate you, you, you, you...............

But somehow my emotions remain in that lie.......bound and resolute.
I can never hate you, you, you, you....that is the truth.

I cannot lower myself to grovel in the mud of lies, deceit and deception.

What I can do however I have done.................I am not HIM.
Him is gone.

He is now.............I am He.

He who you, you, you, you don't know.
He who will never show............

He who has no heart to break no more.
He who is only mind, body and soul.

The Deception is over.
Take of your masks, you, you, you, you,..............